Confessions

I had been meaning to write these but wasn't sure how to. Not many people write about what they are actually go through or the bad times that they have or how they actually feel. I'm not writing these to be a Debbie Downer I'm writing these for encouragement or advice from my family and friends to help me through this instead of me digging myself in my shell and afraid to get out.

So here it goes:

Within the last 7 months since I've moved here with Ray in Columbia, my life has been different. When you hear the word different you may think it sounds BAD, but its not its been for the better. I know it sounds CRAZY but its the truth.

There are times when I feel:

alone-I haven't met many girlfriends in the area. Also, that I have no one to talk to well other than my husband but there are sometimes that he doesn't want to hear me complain.

confused/lost-I don't know where my position in life is, what career should I have, and sometimes I feel bad that I'm a SERVER. I know thats bad to say because I should/glad that I do have a job. And there are times when I make GOOD money and its always nice to have cash. Also, I like the hours that I work.

being a housewife-the time during the day I'm a housewife. Which is a GOOD thing not BAD! I wanted to make sure I clarified. I love being a housewife but at times I feel like I don't know what to do. When I was little thats what I wanted to be more than anything other than a DOCTOR (but that didn't happen). While being home alone all I think about is what to clean, cook,organize or what I should be doing other than relaxing.

BUT then there are times when I feel HAPPY and so BLESSED

happy-that my husband has a the BEST job ever! He has GREAT pay, insurance and most of all he is happy.
-we are in a rental house which we LOVE! its cozy and small. it also has a small lake looking directly out the front door.
-have the best family a girl could ever ask for.

Sitcoms

Some of you may be wondering what does sitcoms mean. Well I feel like I turn to sitcoms to live my life. I know that I don't have the best relationships. I've watched Grey's Anatomy(all the way up till the new season played now), Roseanne (I've watched episodes before but wanted to go through and watch all of them) turned out to be funny, and now Army wives (previously been watching but never saw the first few seasons).

I know the first two shows probably aren't the best shows to watch but they are addicting. Grey's Anatomy I was immediately addicted. My favorite character was Izzy played by Katherine Heigl. I also loved the friendships they made and how they were still friends in all the stuff they went through.

You may be thinking Roseanne, why Roseanne. Well I liked Roseanne because she was funny and most of all her relationship with her sister. Roseanne and her sister Jacky they always went through a lot but they were always there for one another no matter what. I have two sisters that live in Michigan. Ever since I've moved away it seems like its been so hard to keep in touch and have a relationship but the truth is I don't know what to do to have a good relationship.

Army Wives is a great show! Ray says its corny but I guarantee all the WOMAN will enjoy it. I love how all the woman are close, can talk about important, intimate things. They are there for one another. I guess thats just something I've always wanted.

I wouldn't change where I'm at in my life for anything but I wouldn't mind getting advice from any of my follower's.